Tonawanda News — Your mind’s made up.
There’s no going back once you’ve made a choice between Door No. 1 or Door No. 2. You’re not a waffler, you weighed pros and cons, and you’re confident you picked correctly. Or not.
Indeed, the worst part about making a decision can be the regret that’s possible at the end of the choice. And in the new book “Knocking on Heaven’s Door” by Katy Butler, a seemingly no-brainer decision tears a family apart.
Jeff Butler cheated death many times.
As a child, he narrowly missed dying in a car accident. In World War II, he lost an arm, but not his life. And in November 2001, at age 79, he suffered a stroke that nearly killed him. A year later, he received a pacemaker.
And that, says his daughter Katy, kept him alive but didn’t “prevent his slide into dementia, incontinence, near-muteness, misery and helplessness.”
Jeff and his wife Val were forward thinkers. He was a college professor. She was a perfectionist with fierce drive. They had been “in control of their lives, and they did not expect to lose control of their deaths.”
But that’s exactly what happened: As Jeff’s health continued to decline, his abilities dwindled and his cognizance weakened — all of which he was aware. He indicated dismay at his diminished life and said that he’d “unfortunately” lived too long.
On the other side of the country, Katy Butler worried. She’d always been closer to her father than to her mother, but arguments and old hurts continued to sting. Still, she flew home to Connecticut to help because she was, after all, their daughter — statistically, the one who bore the brunt of parenting a parent.
But as Jeff’s dementia worsened, so did Val’s tolerance and her health. She was “stoic,” but impatient, snappish and exhausted, and only accepted outside help when she became overwhelmed.